my loved ones...

haiz... just thinking of my cousins leaving is really depressing... i never realised how big of a deal it was until today when i went for my family gathering... i just got kinda close to them and now everyone s leaving and going their own way.. i realized how sad i am gonna be just thinking that they are not gonna be in the same country as me for a long time... i cant see them whenever i want or for any family occasions... my best fren is not here.. now my cousins are leaving one by one.. its like my loved ones are not with me anymore.. no mater how distant i am from them, they have always made me feel loved and made me feel close to them and not alone.. i always knew that no matter what happens they still love me and always will be there for me.. come to my rescue, if i need any.. there was once when my cousins and i went MOS... and i got kinda disturbed my this friggin guy and when i told them abt it, they got all jumpy and said not to go anywhere alone next time.. somehow i felt really comforted by it.. i know that it was not those mushy kinda words like i love you and stuff but i knew they love me inside and these are the times where i can get a glimse of it.. its really nice you know.. when people who don show their love openly say even the smallest things like this make you feel really loved.. and to think that i am not gonna see their faces for months makes me feel really sad.. haiz.. hope they wont be gone too long..

PS: i love you guys.. i know i don say it.. i know you guys would not like me to say it but i love you... gonna miss you...