BORING!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz my job is friggin boring.. telemarketing job suckz... i am in charge of inviting the manager and director of Jakarta banks.. the names they have is funny. an example would be lik ganja... haha... when i asked the operator for him, i jus laughed on the phone.. i have to sit on the firggin office for 8 bloody hours and call and call and call.. the only reason i am still staying is the pay.. ITS 8 BUCKS PER HOUR.. cool right.. hahaha... anyways i think the operators are really pissed off with me.. i had to call them and ask for 3 to 4 people continuously. who wouldnt be pissed off.. its soo boring i tell ya.. and the worst part is that most of them cant understand english.. i have to repeat myself ALOT... and i get hanged up on ALOT too.. hahahaha...

going to another topic.. i had to take out my naval piercing.. it was getting rejected by my body.. am planning to let it heal fully and pierce again.. heehee... thinking of some other cool place to pierce.. if anyone has any suggestions please drop a tag saying so.. thank you... so i guess thatz abt it.. i will update my blog again when i am bored to death... haha.. yea i am bored to death now....

CUTE PETS OR FASHION STATEMENT????

hey guys.. haha finally i have updated my blog.. hehe... anyways i am gonna talk about a VERY VERY important issue. i have sent you guys an email titled 'Skinning Animals Alive'. please do just take 5 mins of your time and read it through and sign the petition please. i beg of you guys. and do not forward the mail but copy and paste it because if you forward it, the title gets lost. and people might just delete it without even reading it. SEND THE MAIL TO AS MANY PEOPLE AS YOU CAN PLEASE... it is very wrong, what are people doing nowadays. has the human race come to a point where drinking monkey brain, eating dead fetus and eating puppies and kittens has become a delicacy? this is very wrong you guys. i am not asking anyone to become a vegetarian or something because i am not one myself but not to this extend. its disgusting and sickening. SKINNING ANIMALS ALIVE?? what is this... have people gone insane.. this is sick!!! so please we have to do our part to prevent this. i am not asking a big favour from you guys. just 5 mins will do... your every small contribution can save a poor animal's life somewhere... please do this for me at least..

PS: IF ANYONE HAS NOT GOTTEN THIS MAIL YET PLEASE DO DROP AN EMAIL OR TAG ME SAYING SO. SO THAT I CAN SEND YOU THE MAIL. PLEASE. THE ANIMALS NEED US. LETS DO SOMETHING HUMANE FOR A CHANGE.

my loved ones...

haiz... just thinking of my cousins leaving is really depressing... i never realised how big of a deal it was until today when i went for my family gathering... i just got kinda close to them and now everyone s leaving and going their own way.. i realized how sad i am gonna be just thinking that they are not gonna be in the same country as me for a long time... i cant see them whenever i want or for any family occasions... my best fren is not here.. now my cousins are leaving one by one.. its like my loved ones are not with me anymore.. no mater how distant i am from them, they have always made me feel loved and made me feel close to them and not alone.. i always knew that no matter what happens they still love me and always will be there for me.. come to my rescue, if i need any.. there was once when my cousins and i went MOS... and i got kinda disturbed my this friggin guy and when i told them abt it, they got all jumpy and said not to go anywhere alone next time.. somehow i felt really comforted by it.. i know that it was not those mushy kinda words like i love you and stuff but i knew they love me inside and these are the times where i can get a glimse of it.. its really nice you know.. when people who don show their love openly say even the smallest things like this make you feel really loved.. and to think that i am not gonna see their faces for months makes me feel really sad.. haiz.. hope they wont be gone too long..

PS: i love you guys.. i know i don say it.. i know you guys would not like me to say it but i love you... gonna miss you...

Fly away....

have you ever wished you could just get away from everything... i have.. alot of times.. almost everyday actually. i have always wished i could just fly. get away from everyone, everything. just be in the night sky, wind in my hair engulfed in the moonlight.. just under the carpet of the stary night... in peace and serenity. where i could just be myself.. just hear my own thoughts and nothing else. no noise of the cars, people yelling at each other, loud music and tv, stress of education.. nothing... below me where i can only see the beauty of the lights lit up at the streets... breath is the fresh air... where i can sing at the top of my voice and nobody will stop me or tell me i have a very bad voice.. just fly away and rediscover myself with no one telling me what to do or manipulating my thoughts and changing me to be someone else.. even if its just a few hours.. it will heaven... i will be free... free from everything even from myself... where the world is nothing... nothing else will matter to me when i am just the night sky flying away in the cold night breeze....

beautiful nightmare

for the first time after what only seemed to be centuries, there was a sense of happiness in me. a feeling that i thought i could never feel again.

i slowly looked down at my hands. RED. that was what i saw. my hands were covered in blood. my white satin gown was stained with blood. but somehow the colour was beautiful. i did not want to remove it.

i realized i was holing onto something tightly in my hand. i lifted up my hand slowly that every second seemed like an eternity.

finally i saw it. my paper cutter tightly clenched between my fist that i could feel my nails digging through my flesh. the feeling was nice. the pain was somehow relieving, soothing.

something at the corner of the bed caught my eye. there was a blood trail from me leading to it. something inside told me to follow it and i did, taking each step carefully and steadily.

there he was. my prince laying there on the ground covered in blood. gruesomely stabbed to death. everything came rushing back in my mind.. i remembered what happened.
i killed him.
i killed my prince.
and the thought of it made me grin. i loved the feeling. the feeling of murder..........

first time for everythin..

so i jus created this blog. i am that bored.. haha.. i am so not a blog kinda person. i think having a blog is a total waste of time. but hey if it makes me feel bette to jus think that some soul out there is reading this junk that i am writing than that is totally fine with me. i am dedicating this to you my poor friend. haha.. anyways lets see today i went to watch 'sweeny todd' with my little piggy friend. the movie was awesome. so much blood and stuff. it was nice and funny. hmmm i wonder how you bloggers do this. i seriously cant think of anythin to write and i dont know why you are reading this crap that i am writing. but i really appreciate it.. hehe.. i think most probably i will just write short stories from tomorrow onwards or somethin. at least it will be interesting and entertaining for you. that is if you visit this blog again. haha.. so i guess thatz it than.. come read my blog for short stories... :o)