lesson learnt

haha... over my past 19 years of life, i have never imagined i would learn such a huge lesson in my life.... something you cant learn in school or in books...

April 12th- lesson of the life started
August 11th- lesson successfully completed

soooo... the extend guys go to.... now i am the bad guy in the whole picture. well i am not really sad or anything.. but seriously after all that i have done for him... again i am not asking him to return me the things i have done.. but seriously at least a little respect.. well at least have a little respect for yourself man.. oh my..

haha you play dirty and so can i...

but wad a sissy.. running to your mom.. oh my.. even i don't do that.. grow some balls BOY... i am guessing you neve grew up and you neve will...

really pity the next gal that comes by.. or should i be saying the next victim..

but again i have to really thank you for bringing a new friend into my life.. a wonderful person.. thank you for that.. he is a friend... at least treasure him will you..

i still neve stood so low as to tell your mom wadever you have said about her.. please i have some dignity.. and i respect ppls feeling...

i wanted to do justice to myself and to you by leaving.. but NOOO.... you just became a fucking sore loser.. haha you just became shanker's ex galfren.. well, kinda worse actually...

i am just so gals everything is over.. wow... i feel as though a huge burden is off me... hugee... cant believe i was in this shit for 4 months.. wow.. but great lesson i life though.. thank you...

END...

a heart breaking end for an expected happy ending story... well wad can i say, like is unfair at times..

is this one of the experiences that i have to go through in life... am i to learn something from it... if this was supposedly a lesson, damn it is the most fucked up lesson i can ever learn..
you know wads the most funny part, it would be the end of 4 months tomorrow... haha 4 months... the amount of happiness that i have experienced in this 4 months have been more than the amount of happiness i have experienced in the 18 years of my life. and needless to say, its the same case for the sadness, disappointed, hate, anger, pain and everything... dont you get it... its not meant to be... its like putting together and orange and an apple.. no matter how much the apple says i can become an orange, it can NEVE be an orange... it will neve be the same.. tell me something, how long do you think i can live with the hope.. i have to move on in life.. i am 19 and i have to take the opportunities that come by me... if i keep holding on to you, than i will not be moving anywhere in life.. i know i will regret one day.. thatz for certain... but again, i made a mistake to begin with, i should not have played with your feelings.. its my fault.. and i am really sorry... i know sorry is nothing.. you don need a sorry, but i see not way out... you tell me things will get bette, but when??? when will things get bette?? when will you get bette?? will i even be alive when that happens??

all you did was give me your love, life, happiness... all i did was to take and take... finally i took them all and jus dumped in away... i don blame you if you hate me... i will neve blame you if you feel like killing me... i'm sorry for the words i spoke, i'm sorry for the way i treated you, i'm sorry for all that i broke, i'm sorry for the way i think, i'm sorry for how much time i took to end this relationship.. the longer i wait, the more pain it will bring.... its my fault... it really is... i am sorry...

who says first love does not last only for guys??

awesome dayyyy

the day before yesterday... i mean Tuesday.. my cousins and i met up to celebrate my cousin bro's belated bday... was a totally fun day... started off with going for the fish therapy where the tiny fishes feast on the dead skin on the feet... yucks.. i know that was soo friggin disgusting... and the feeling was sooo... hmm how do i put it.. it felt as if your leg was jus covered with earthworms.. all crawling on the skin.. still cant get the feeling off... and it was so ticklish.. i was jus laughing.. but than again you cant move your leg.. so i had to control.. my cousin sis spent about 15 to 20 mins with her leg on the surface of the water.. she was so scared.. i got a really juicy video of it... than finally she put her feet in... haha... it was a really fun experience.. its a really great place to just have fun and chat with frenz and catch up on things...

after that we went down to this place in outrum park called "settlers"... real cool place.. the concept is just so different... the place was filled with all kinds of board games and we were there playing games till 11.. the ppl had to wait for us to leave.. it was just too fun.. although the food was not really great.. but the experience was jus priceless... it was just a day after such a long time i got to spend time with my cousins and brothers.. i miss having that bond...

even my brothers started complaining that i am not close to them anymore.. now i am getting closer to them again.. smoking with them.. just talking crap.. random visits to their room and just ask dumb questions like "so are you studying" or "so playing game ah?".. haha when i clearly know that they are playing game or studying..you know jus small talk... i missed them.. haha.. okie i am starting to get all mushy...

really cant wait to bring my frenz to settlers... i think we will probably have a hell of a time there.. should bring especially shanker.. he would love it... hehehe.. cant wait for the holidays... got so many things planned for us... not me and shanker but the others too...... YAY!!!!!

freaky...

yesterday was such a long and tiring day.. i found out how much patience i really have... and trust me.. I AM A VERY VERY PATIENT PERSON....

for the first time in about 6 years someone screamed at me... it scared the shit out of me... i literally jus jumped up... haha sajeev noticed that...

but seriously thank god sajeev was there to help me out... he is a real angel... he got me and ismail through such a difficult situation... and again when ismail gets angry, he just does not know what he is doing... and i am not talking about that 'issue'.. besides that issue, when he is just angry, he just looses it... one very good example will be screwing his fren up.. a person he cares friggin so much about... the message was just a thousand knives stabbing you... but you are just not dying.. so ya imagine.. i neve wanna get into his bad books.. thatz for sure.. probably i will just kill myself if he says such things to me... haha.. anyways.. hehe guess who finished things off smoothly.. hehe.. ME!!!!.... wow i just feel so grown up.. like so in control of myself... i can just handle any situations now a days... wow... i am impressed with myself.. really... (not braggin)... hehehe...

4 MORE DAYS FOR TERM TO END.... WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO

shakthee loves sherilyn (x

busy as a BEE!!!

heyyy... haha have been so caught up with things lately... thinking of ways to make money... got so much of things to do now...

1) sell tickets
2) start businesses (yea more than 1)
3) find a uni in singapore (hopefully)
4) EARN MONEY!!! (i am on my way doing that)
5) BE HAPPY!!!! ( do whatever it takes to get happiness coz at the end of the day nothing can be compared to it...)

i am so sorry you guys... but the thing is that now every minute is so precious to me that i don't wanna be spending it with people whom are not going anywhere in life.. with the lame jokes and bitching sessions (seriously guys it not really appropriate for guys to bitch around.. its a little too gay even for you ppl)... i would rather spend the time with people who have a future... but seriously no offense..

and coming to another topic... thank you Sajeev... you really are an awesome guy... Ismail and i are really lucky to have found a friend like you.. like Ismail said.. there is a new character in my l life now.. YOU!!!...

like i said.. i choose mt friends.. if you are a friend i treasure.. that means you are really worth it... that is why Shanker, Ismail, Sajeev and Kalei are the people in my heart.. coz you guys just have that in you... fun, practical and the potential to be very successful in life... you guys rock my world...

cant wait for kalei to come back... I JUST MISS YOU SOOO MUCH!!!!! we are gonna have a blast here... and you too Raj... miss youuuuuuuu.....

actually i would say that sajeev is very goodlooking.. ANY GAL SHOULD BE LUCKY TO HAVE HIM... and having him as a fren is really an honor.... so proud that he is from my secondary school.. haha its to be expected from ppl from the same school as me waddd.....

haizz damnn... got to stop smoking on the 15th aug.. hehe don know how i am gonna do that.. i just get soo bloody tempted.. and shanker better stop when i do... if not..... and seriously i don know wads the deal with ppl and thinking he is my boyfren.. i mean come on la... he is shorter than me... hehe but its so nice to have a guy best fren... you just get to share everythin.. (sometime it can be a little disturbing)... but i do notice alot of gals checking him out... haha... blind gals... hehe.. (just kidding boy)..

coming to books.. it has been sooooooo long since i read books.. sajeev passed me this book "tell me your dream" by Sidney Sheldon... SUCH A COOL BOOK!!! it just pulls you inside... i don even know the time passing by when i am reading it.. suspense, thriller, vulgarities, sex... it just have everything... cool cool... cant wait to finish it...

so yea.. alot of cool things are happening.. just no time to write them all down... but i will tryyyy...

PS: ISMAIL....... YOU ARE A PIGGY... OINK OINK... haha sorry.. just cant help it...