booya!!!

heyhey... argghh.. so long since i blogged... many many things going on in my mind right now.. cant sleep... just too many nightmares..

people killing me.... committing suicide... accident... yea some of my nightmares...

forget about that... the most horrifying things is that my past keeps coming back to haunt me.. its like i somehow keep going back to the crime scene... i know i don want to.... but i jus end up there.. its the ppl... its always abt the ppl..

and me leaving... i am gonna miss so many ppl here.. i am gonna leave half my life here and go.. i don know how i am gonna cope with that.. its gonna be so difficult.. i jus hope i don go under depression... my family.. frenz.. loved ones.. BED!!! haha...

life seems to be pretty damn boring... and dreadful...

been reading abt the whole 2012 things. you know the doomsday.. haha jus cant wait.. it seems to be pretty realistic.. i mean it is proven scientifically and religiously.. so i mean i believe in it... and cant wait.. until than i am jus gonna live day to day.. no big plans for the future.. no oohhaaa abt anything... jus live life.. see wads gonna happen next.. MUHAHAHAHA... DIE...EVERYONE DIE!!!!!!!!!