welllllllllll april 12th.. this date might not mean much to anyone.. this was the date i got into a relationship with ismail 4 yrs back.. if we were still together, we would be celebrating our 4 yr anniversary.. but we are not.. so its just another date which hold much memories.. this was the day when i got my first kiss.. a proper one.. with whom i shared feelings with.. i still can remember.. well like they say, girls dont forget their first kiss.. it was in a park.. i dont know the name of the park coz we were jus walking for hours and ended up somewhere but i know it was in either ang mo kio or yishun.. it was a huge park.. filled with trees.. we were walking beside each other.. it was full moon.. i remember that becoz we were talking abt how beautiful it was.. it was right above us.. he was wearing a cap and i took it away.. he kept asking and i said no.. yes yes it was childish of me but hey i was just 19.. anyways he came towards to to take it.. our faces was just centimeters away and than it happened..our eyes were locked and he leaned in and kissed me.. it was a very quick one.. but it jus seemed to go on forever.. it was like the perfect kiss.. and i was blushing.. hahahah yes i know me? blushing? but yea i didnt even look at his face for the next 10 mins and i jus kept looking down smiling.. he got worried and asked if he did anything wrong.. i looked at him and jus smiled.. and he smiled back at me.. that smile.. that wonderful smile that i love.. that jus melts my heart.. and he grabbed hold of my hand and it was just perfect..
one thing i love abt him was that he was very spontaneous.. he knew the right moments.. and he just did things which a girl loves.. like in the movies.. that was wad i really miss.. the moments when you are admiring the lake and he jus hugs you from the back and whispers in your ear that he loves you and the moments when you are enjoying the rain and catch him staring at you in wonder instead.. the cheeky smile he gives when he realizes he had made you blush.. the times he jus grabbed hold of my hand and squeezed it assuring me that nothing will happen to me when i am just screaming at him.. even when he have the worst fights, at the end of the day, he still said the perfect thing which made you feel like everything is going to be alright..
there was once when we had one of our bad fights.. i cant remember what it was.. he were on our way to watch dark knight.. and i jus couldnt take it and i ran off crying.. i actually jus ran up one of the blocks coz i wanted to be alone.. and the next thing i knew he was calling me and calling out my name in panic.. after abt 10 mins when i was calm enough, i went down and found him sitting on the bench nearby holding his head on his knees.. i went beside him thinking he was gonna scream at me for running off like that.. but he looked at me.. his eyes were wet.. it just broke my heart.. he held my hand and told me how sorry he was and he wouldnt know wad to do if i leave him..
you see i dont know if he jus knew wad to say to a girl or if he actually meant it.. but either way, it never failed to touch my heart.. he had that "gift".. the one which all gals hope their boyfren would have..
but of coz we have had the worst fights too.. that was wad lead to the break up.. but who cares abt those things when you can just think abt the happy moments..
titus was always there for me.. no doubt.. but he could never make my heart skip a beat or he could never do things which just makes my knee feel like jelly.. but he was always there for me..
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