aahhh seriously.. one thing which i seriously appreciate abt singapore.. EX LINK CARDS!!!! bloody hell twice i got stuck in human traffic becoz of the friggin faulty ticket i got issued today.. at central station somemore.. got through with the '1 ticket 2 people' move.. thanks to the lady behind me.. but its was more of she didnt have a choice.. hahah so kanchiong already put in the ticket before i could go out the other way.. seriously why cant they have friggin ex link card system here.. where the trains are always packed.. it will make life sooo much easier and everyone would travel more efficiently.. no more annoying rude train officers waking you up when you are sleeping in the train.. no more queing up for sooooo looonnnggg to buy ticket every morning, especially monday mornings.. and no more jam at the exit and entry points.. damn..
secondly.. i have decided to take out my lip piercing.. FOR GOOD!!! i decided it yesterday.. have no idea why suddenly but i just thought after 6 long years, i need a change.. the piercing has been with me through out the most dramatic times in my life.. and i feel like i need a fresh start.. i dont know how removing the piercing is gonna help me.. but i feel like its a much needed change.. something different in my face.. i sign that i am an adult now.. no time for silly things in my life.. something like that.. i actually feel much better.. like i have given up something old and unwanted in my life.. my poor ring is locked away in my drawer.. a new me..
and one more thing.. i have been talking to bear everyday since i came here.. bear is my poly fren.. shanker's fren actually who got introduced to me.. he used to like me.. he told me that he likes me on 2009 new year when i told him that i was spending it with my boyfren titus.. he said something like oh no, i have missed my chance.. coz i kinda liked you.. something like that.. i cant remember exactly.. i kept that message in my old hp before it got stolen.. :( but anyways i have been in contact with him all these yrs and we have grown quite close since i came here.. he is a very very nice guy.. sweet, caring, tall but a yr younger... haha anyways thatz not the point.. the point is i think he likes me.. again or still.. not sure.. i neve asked.. but i can see it in the way he talks to me.. yesterday he said he wanted to marry me and i said yea if he dares come alone and talk to my family abt it i will marry him.. thinking that he was joking.. but i am not sure anymore.. i feel weird asking him if he does like me.. i mean thatz gonna be soo weird.. how do i even ask.. but i dont have such feeling towards him.. i have no idea why.. he is a perfectly nice guy yet i dont like him in that way while i pine over idiots.. wad am i to do with myself.. anyway i should ask him.. soon.. i don wan to make him uncomfortable or make things weird between us.. it has been so nice talking to him.. makes me feel at home.. like i am not alone.. like someone cares for me afterall.. but i shouldnt lead him on.. that is if he does like me.. i should tell him.. soon soon..
it was so nice to jus zone out in the mornings.. in the train, cold breeze on your face, listening to slow songs.. jus lovely.. thought abt ismail here and there but it was not the overwhelming feeling.. i think i am over that now.. its jus nice thinking abt the future.. how i want it to be.. my perfect life.. its gonna be awesome.. i can feel it.. its gonna be just like how i want it to be.. no more nonsense.. everything will fall into place.. yes it will..
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